So take me on the pathway that leads me home to you

This beautiful song is the prayer of my life right now.

The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When You lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'll never go alone (yeah oh oh)

So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the sufferin' Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

When I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna sing, gonna shout
Gonna look into your eyes and see you never let me down
So take me on the pathway that leads me home to you
And I will walk through the valley if you want me to 

Yes, I will walk through the valley if you want me to

This is driving me crazy. I have too much hope in a hopeless situation. arrgg confusion. I can't figure out if this is just all in my head or if this is real hope from God. Oh well. I'm waiting this out.

Future?

My future kinda hit me in the face kinda today. I have some decisions to make. I need to get a move on it.

what a feeling in my soul...

I had to go to the car to check for diet coke for my mom just a minuet ago and got hit with the best feeling ever. :]

Right now it's spring and when you step outside the the beauty of God is just SO evident. It hangs thick in the air. The birds are singing, the grass and trees are finally green again, the sky is deep blue with white puffy clouds, and the weather is absolutely PERFECT!

So when I went to the car and the beauty surrounded me and I could feel his presents so close. :] So close and so big. I looked up at the sky and my heart was in awe of how big and beautiful it is. When I think about how God is much much much bigger than the sky and he loves me more that ANYTHING, that's when I feel most loved. He is so holy, big, beautiful, righteous, perfect, and good! How can I not love him once I get this little glimpse. He is it. I love him.

clueless.

So. I came on here with something to post...but...i have forgot already.

And now it's driving me crazy...

Oh dang. I have no clue what I had in mind.

boo. :[

Have I mentioned that I got an awesome early birthday present!!

I Nikon D40!

Woo! I love it! God is SO good at blessing me. :D

Let's see what can I say that will be insightful for me in the future?? OK here is a lesson I have learned. Always smile. I just think even when you have a reason to not you should. It's a way of showing trust. Trusting God. No worries. I was sick for 4 days with laryngitis and smiling brought me much peace and joy. I had some awesome plans for Friday and they got squashed by work today, I could of cried and honestly I did a little (such a girl) but once I got over it I just changed my attitude and smiled and my outlook is much better. And when your sad if you smile you automatically get happy. so there.

Trust God and SMILE :D

I hope this applies to me. :] ha.

"Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones, because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with... Read More them when in reality, they are amazing! They have to wait for the right guy to come along. The one who is brave enough to climb to the top of the tree"

I'm hoping that this is the reason that no guy has ever pursued me.....


ha.

blessed.

I woke up this morning and truly felt blessed. Like I really felt it. It was a feeling. It covered my heart and made my soul smile. This is new to me. I have never had this as a feeling before. It's hard to explain, but it's a mixture of gratitude, love, & joy. I'm so undeserving of all I have. I'm just fine with the fact that I have salvation and Jesus loves me but I get blessed with a ton of other things that I don't even ask of or deserve! My heart feels full with peace right now.

How sweet it is to be loved by you....

wisdom cries.

Do you hear me?
I am there, I am here.
I'm beside the way, Where the paths meet.
I cry out at the city gate,
At every doorway,
Where the decisions are to be made.
I cry. I cry Truth.
Asking, Do you know where that door leads?
Cause I do.
That door leads down to death.
The steps lay hold of hell.
That's not the place you were meant to go.
Do not be deceived. That door holds lies.
Avoid it at all cost.
It leads to darkness.
Before you go in it's looks desirable but in the end it's bitter.
Do not even go near.
Do not get caught in the cord of sin.
Turn away and pass on.
Keep your eyes straight forward.
Listen to me. I speak truth.
Walk the path of life. I will lead you.
I long for you to live, to really live.
All I want is to see you free.
I've been here from the beginning, before the earth was here.
I was there when he prepared the heavens.
I was there when he marked out the foundations of the earth.
I was daily his delight, rejoicing always before him.
Rejoicing in His inhabited world,
And my delight was with the sons of men.
Listen.
I am lifting my voice.
I speak of excellent things.
I am understanding, & I have strength for you.
I love those who love me.
And happy is the man who finds me.
All the things you may desire cannot compare with me.
Length of days is in my right hand.
In my left hand are riches and honor. Enduring riches.
My ways are ways of pleasantness.
And my paths are peace.
I am a tree of life to those who take hold of me.
Do you hear me?
You will lose everything if you go through that door.
That door will cost you your life.
Life is all you have. guard it, protect it.
Therefore listen to me. Pay attention to the words of my mouth.
Blessed is the man who listens to me!
Watch daily at my gates. Wait at the post of my doors.
For whoever finds me finds life.
And those who seek me diligently will find me.
And you will obtain favor from the Lord.
For by wisdom your days will be multiplies.
I can give you so much and that door will destroy it all.
Sin is crouching at your door BUT blessed is that man who overcomes temptation.
Surly I will pour out my spirit on you;
I will make my words know to you.
I will be life to your soul and grace to your neck.
When you lie down you will not be afraid.
Your sleep will be sweet.
Do not forsake me, I will preserve you.
Love me, I will keep you.
Exalt me, and I will promote you.
Keep me, I am your life.

Kia Soul

I am currently obsessed with the Kia Soul. I think about it as if I was in love with it. I am in awe of it's coolness. If I had one i'd be head over heel happy.

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i'll be praying

shamwow.

I don't watch much tv at all. Whenever I do watch it though I will flip around a lot and sometimes get stuck on a infomercial. I usually want what they are trying to sell but I'm never stupid enough to actually buy that stuff. I believe most all of them are extremely exaggerated, actually they straight up lie on those commercials but deep down I still want the junk. ;]

Soooo Thursday I was given Turbo Jam & Shamwow. Given to me!! Free! :] from two different people. Two different places. wow. I was pretty happy. I would never spend 20 bucks on a Shamwow that I know WILL NOT soak water straight out of the carpet, like they claim. Cause I know that's imposable and a waste of money. I'd never buy either of those But, God knew that deep down I wanted it and he got it to me for free. :) It pretty much tickled me. I was pretty happy.

I layed in bed that night and realized that these gifts were straight from God. :] I never realize how much He blesses me. I pray my eyes would be more open to the way he's moving in my life. I want to be grateful for what he's doing. I want to praise him for all he does. I want to thank and appreciate him.

though I sleep, my heart is awake

My love for sleep run deep. I think I get it from my dad and my brother is the same way. Alarms can't wake us. The only way I can ever get up is if someone is bugging me to get up. Thank God for my momma. haha... seriously. :]

I really am not a fan of this. I've heard over and over that the morning is the best time with the Lord, and I try pretty hard to get up extra early to get that sweet time with him but so far it's just not happening. I end up waking up with just enough time to get ready.

But, Don't think I don't try. I DO! Last night I set 5 alarms! Yep, FIVE! I made each of them about 3 minuets apart and each time one went off I would turn it off and go back to sleep, and then it was 7:30 and I had to get ready.

arrggg

Just wait and see, I will defeat this. :]

a start.

The future holds wonderful things.

I'll keep you updated.

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